Okay so i'm back again I told you I was on my blog shit again. Today its not a discussion more like some things I need to get off my chest. So here we go.
I have always had a hard time expressing my true feelings, not sure if that just stems from my parents or the trauma I experienced as a teenager. For some reason when I like someone instead of me saying how I really feel I dance around the subject until either that person just grows uninterested or I talk myself out of what I am really feeling.
For once I would just love to go up to this person and lay it all on the line and see what happens. Is it fear of rejection or is that what I am feeling isn't really true. I mean there has to be some feelings you can't spend time with someone, be intimate with someone and just walk away like nothing even happened. I mean we speak everyday and everyday I tell myself, today will be the day that I let him know how I really feel. But by the end of the phone call nothing has been accomplished.
The best way that I express myself is in writing and I tried a letter but I can't bring myself to give it to him. So I'll lay into all on the line right now and hopefully he will read this (I doubt it)
I realy like you and the time we spend together no matter how short it may be it brings a smile to my face. I know you probably want to take your time and see whats out there but when you are ready just know I am willing and ready to take that next step with you. Hopefully you feel the same way about me and even if you don't that will never effect the way I feel about you and I will continue to spend time with you.
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